Now that I am on this whole God-sized dream journey, what will I do? I've set my goal, however broad at this point, I need check points! Check points to help me along my course, to define what my dream means to me, to help see clear progress!
My mustard seed goal and start to my God-sized dreams is to show my true self this year and document it without fear of what people will think or what people will say! Through my everyday experiences, thoughts, and words I hope to make what's up their jumbled in my brain become concrete and start on a road. A road to where I am still not sure of yet but I road I am ready to jump on and take.
When I first started to set my goals it was more of a to-do list, all these physical things that I could accomplish but to me it's so much more than that.
I grew up not talking about certain things; money, religion, politics, really anything that would ruffle feathers. It's always there at the back of my mind, " Is someone not going to like what I have to say, what I have to do?" How is that a way to live. Everyone had their true self, sharing this can open true and meaningful conversations and relationships. Not sharing seems like a fake facade that could crack and crumble with just a slip. Which would I rather be? I chose true and meaningful. It doesn't mean we always have to agree but without sharing their is no learning.
This brings me back to my to-do list, I first wrote...
- Have more substantial posts
- Broaden my scope of writing
- Investigate volunteering here in our new city
- Connect with some groups like I was at our old house
- Research company I am interested in
- Finish my book pile
- Plan more family adventures
Each of these items are small tick mark items I can physically research and do, but like I said my heart is crying out for more. Those "true and meaningful" items. This took me into deeper thought and I came up with a new/separate list.
- Write what I think
- Say things I may be uncomfortable saying
- Be confident in my beliefs
- Really look at volunteering as a way to make a difference and really help
- Continue to connect with others that inspire and intrigue me.
- Learn, learn, learn
So now I have two lists. Some physical items I can do, some mental items I can do to really push me further. This is where the mustard seed will really take root and start to grow.
Even as I have thought about these pieces the past week I have begun to make progress.
- I wrote a personal post on an issues that I would normally shy away from
- I've expressed some opinions out in the open about and issue close to my heart
- I have also really begun looking into volunteering like I use to{This one is a work in progress}
Small steps but I can already feel a difference. It is freeing as a type-A person to have my lists and organization but realize I am not directed by them but directed by something deeper and more meaningful.
My simple step this week is to expand on this slightly and add in more devotional time, more quiet reflection time.
Until then...
I grew up not talking about certain things; money, religion, politics, really anything that would ruffle feathers. It's always there at the back of my mind, " Is someone not going to like what I have to say, what I have to do?" How is that a way to live. Everyone had their true self, sharing this can open true and meaningful conversations and relationships. Not sharing seems like a fake facade that could crack and crumble with just a slip. Which would I rather be? I chose true and meaningful. It doesn't mean we always have to agree but without sharing their is no learning.
This brings me back to my to-do list, I first wrote...
- Have more substantial posts
- Broaden my scope of writing
- Investigate volunteering here in our new city
- Connect with some groups like I was at our old house
- Research company I am interested in
- Finish my book pile
- Plan more family adventures
Each of these items are small tick mark items I can physically research and do, but like I said my heart is crying out for more. Those "true and meaningful" items. This took me into deeper thought and I came up with a new/separate list.
- Write what I think
- Say things I may be uncomfortable saying
- Be confident in my beliefs
- Really look at volunteering as a way to make a difference and really help
- Continue to connect with others that inspire and intrigue me.
- Learn, learn, learn
So now I have two lists. Some physical items I can do, some mental items I can do to really push me further. This is where the mustard seed will really take root and start to grow.
Even as I have thought about these pieces the past week I have begun to make progress.
- I wrote a personal post on an issues that I would normally shy away from
- I've expressed some opinions out in the open about and issue close to my heart
- I have also really begun looking into volunteering like I use to{This one is a work in progress}
Small steps but I can already feel a difference. It is freeing as a type-A person to have my lists and organization but realize I am not directed by them but directed by something deeper and more meaningful.
My simple step this week is to expand on this slightly and add in more devotional time, more quiet reflection time.
Until then...